spilling open.

he told me what i was doing was smart. what i was doing, as in what i was doing with my life lately and what i thought i might do with my life in the near future, the near future being the period between today and next year. i shared with him my current plan, the one i revise every five minutes, convincing even myself that it didn't just make sense--it was practically brilliant. but i'm not sure what i really think. sometimes i think i'm doing everything right, but i wonder if that's where i falter: i think, rather than feel. surely to think (use your brain) in itself is not bad--i have not educated myself for nothing--but feeling (know your heart) is key. it's a balance. thinkfeelbrainheartsuccesshappiness.

life.

you know, i was starting to get pretty embarrassed with me, these words, this site because i felt like all i ever did was repeat myself. so maybe i do. but it's nothing to be ashamed of, i am realizing. what i repeat is important. it's everything i need to remember and have yet to figure out.

imagine how dull life would be if i knew everything, already. there'd be no reason for tomorrow.

inspired:
spilling open is a marvelous book--inspiring and truthful and beautiful. i highly recommend it to all women, especially those who feel like they are sometimes stumbling awkwardly through life. sabrina ward harrison also has an unfinished-but-lovely website.

lost:
restraint.

found:
it seems a gocco kit is just the thing i've been looking for to be a self-printing maven, but i can't quite tell from the website. do you know gocco? if so, do tell. i will send you a postcard of gratitude.

overheard:
"talking to you is like talking to my grandmother. i have to enunciate every word and shout really loudly."

"what?"

nonsequitur:
i held a baby in my arms last night. i could be a mother, i thought. but then she began to cry and i handed her back.

momentarily: